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My ex is visiting (WA) from AL this week. He came to see me earlier today. I had rehearsed week in advance what to say when he talked through my door. But all my lines went out the window as soon as we sat down and started talking. The talking lead to flirting and the flirting lead to him saying he still loved me. I started crying and he grabbed me and cried too. He told me that he'd made a mistake and missed me. Two hours later we ended up at starbucks for an after-sex coffee.
Jon (my ex) and I broke up because his move from AL put unwanted strain on our relationship...and I happen to had gone crazy after he left. I snapped into a mania (not because he left) and became a completely different person for three months. He had left Nov. 2003, and was coming back to visit for a couple weeks last June. I was in the hospital trying to get better for part of the time he was in WA...when I got out we met up at church...I was on a heavy dose of seds. From just having got out...and Id lost about 20ibs since he’d last seen me. He took one look at me for the first time in seven months, turned then walked the other way. I followed and asked why?!? But his answer was I looked like a "crack whore." He later explained he was scared because I might not be the same person he remembered me as, and scared because he thought he’d lost me. I forgave him...but realized it was time to move on...if I have feelings for him, but we can’t be together then why waste emotion on him? Fuck I don't even know if I love him? The reason I’m typing all this phooey is because I'm seeing him tomorrow, and I need to decided to get closure with that or keep it open? During, and especially after the sex he wouldn’t stop kissing my lips and telling me how beautiful and how much he loves me...but where does that leave us? I want to believe he means everything, but so childish at times I don’t know if he’s being honest or fucking w/ my head...I know I have low self-esteem and its so cliché' to say but "Why would he ever love me?" I asked him this, and his reply was I made he feel normal...ha-ha, maybe because I’m so fucked up!?!
During sex he kept asking if I loved him and had missed him...I said I did and I had...but who would reply negatively during sex??
And the finally question of the night...he told me he had sex w/ 8 girls then after sex it went down to 6 when I asked again....wtf!?!

-Sorry for my whiny emo post...and horrible spelling, grammar errors.

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Comments
simple_kindaman From: simple_kindaman Date: December 29th, 2004 08:39 am (UTC) (Link)
Wow, sounds more like a best friends with benefits thing than love. You're a booty call, but that might be something you both need, so it might not be all bad. If you're in one state and he's way off in another then it should be easy to determine that you both have lives to lead and you can either maintain a best friends with benefits relationship, or just friends if there's suitable dialogue/emotions between you without sex, or just break it off altogether.
Don't get down on yourself, he's a manwhore he's not worth you getting upset.
Ask direct questions and keep asking him until you get a direct answer, no bullshit.
simple
clandestine_ana From: clandestine_ana Date: December 29th, 2004 01:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hes confusing whenever I ask him straight questions. We were joking around about Al. and I said he's most likely infected w/ an unknown Al. std...but he said he didnt love anyone down there, and he loved and missed me...I don't know if hes romancing me to get laid...or he truely does love me.
skreyola From: skreyola Date: December 29th, 2004 07:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
He's playing you.
simple_kindaman From: simple_kindaman Date: December 30th, 2004 05:58 am (UTC) (Link)
Wanna see how much he loves you, stop putting out for a while.
simple
From: angel_blades Date: December 30th, 2004 03:44 am (UTC) (Link)
he is a dick...like all guys!
From: notorious1 Date: January 6th, 2005 12:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
i was in the same exact situation and let me tell u, i never thought i'd get over him. its gonna take a long time but really you need to stop hooking up with him...as hard as that seems. i was hooking up with my ex for almost a year whenevr he wanted. he told me he loved me and he wanted to be with me...but lots of things stopped that from happening..if u just stop talking to him, stop seeing him, just get him out of your life..you'll eventually get some closure from it.
pekadillo From: pekadillo Date: February 25th, 2005 10:05 pm (UTC) (Link)

hopfuly it helps

I dont have much to say to you right now. But maybe if you read some of my entries it'll help yu withdeciding what to do.
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